Everyone has some sort of coping mechanism, what's your vice?

Gym. I go there almost every day. I always do double of what my program tells. I always do too heavy weights and too many sets, reps. I skip recovery and eat waaay more than comfortable. It's stupidly dangerous and unhealthy, but that keeps me sane and somewhat balanced. If I can't go to gym, I get depressed and angry. I need gym to balance my daily stressors. It's not gym's fault. Gym is healthy. My approach is unhealthy. I'm overly competitive and really neglecting my health. I also abuse caffeine on almost every workout. I take it so much that it sometimes almost feels like high. I'm getting bigger, hotter and stronger, but the cost is high... Fuck. It's bench day tomorrow. My back is sore af, but I can't wait!